The shittiest thing about being depressed is everything you like or lave just sucks. Nothing is any good. Things that don't normally bother you are mutiplied 1000 fold until you dispise every irritant.
I hate the way I feel right now. I hate how i'm feeling so negative. I'm supposed to be the one who can look past the negativity and embrase the positive, no matter how small. Right now I just dont give a fuck and that scares the hell out of me.
I dont know why i write this. It'll probably make people worry and then I'll have to deal with that too. But if I dont do something I'll explode. I don't want to blow up.